oh today is pain filled!

Ugh I hurt, sooooo bad today my back is killin gme, my uterus is prepping for some sort of olympic games for strongest muscle ever and cramping like you would not believe, and I just don't feel good.

BUT! I've decided I need to declutter, I'm not going to get rid of my yarn or my fabric or my books, but I have excess furniture! So sent an email to my team and am getting 15 bucks for a desk and chair, and this weekend I am just going to spend time going through what I have and make the decision on whether or not to keep it. I need to pare down on what I have in my home, because all this clutter is about to drive me INSANE.

Anyways, have a great weekend all! I will when it starts in... 3 hours :)

HOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDIIIIIIEEEEEE

I am going to make my OWN hoodie!!! I found the BEST tutorial the person who wrote it is speaking my language :D ( all tutorials are written for different people, this one was written for me! :P)

http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?PHPSESSID=8f9fc8m97hbtkhjdfl8102lr45&topic=100217.0

That's the link for the Tutorial incase you'd like to do it too :)

Just have to wait for Payday so that I can go out and find a huge shirt with a design that I Heart!

Hope everyone hase a beautiful and blessed day!

Been Watching more Youtube Videos about the Surgery !!! *Heart*

That's the latest video I've watched, and I LOVE HER!! she's just so great! It's nice to see people going through the same things I am going to be going through soon :D.

Yep yep yep I have a Vlog too incase you are wondering, you can visit it here : http://www.youtube.com/user/Bellanoctumn?feature=mhee

Been a heckuva day!

Sometimes I wonder about people. And those wonderings are not nice :(. I need to correct my tude! When it's my time of the month I am a TOTAL mean girl.... my only excuse is that I"m miserable, but that shouldn't be enough of a reason to think the thoughts I do! Must Correct! lol

Today was a hard day, I was drained and my customers were mostly snarky bratty butts. BUTTTTTTT I still made it through :).

Eugene did not have a great day today either, poor guy, he had some tough customers too! Today was hard for a lot of people. He forgot his lunch too! :( So when I got off of work I drove home, picked up his lunch, drove back to work heated it up and set it on his desk ( he was in a meeting). I hope that having some home cooked Lasagna will help his day get better! He needs it!

I am going to make some Brownies for the team Potluck tomorrow, because honestly I'm too tired, and too broke to make anything healthy lol. Besides, my Brownies were specifically requested. :D

I realized today, as I was investigating a scam and following the money trail that one thing I would ADORE doing is Auditing... I know I'm a total freak, but I love love love following the money trail!

Anywhoodles, I'm tired, and rambling, pain meds are working... HAve a wonderful day everyone! <3

~Sarah~!

Various and Sundry thoughts and rambles

So I kicked butt at work tonight, Getting 96 issues done, some of you will understand what an extraordinary night this was for me :) Getting that many issues done is HARD and rewarding!

Sadly though I am on my period, I never like my periods because they tend to last a LONG time, like weeks. And it's painful and gross. My uterus is made of freaking steal though, strongest muscle in my body LOL.

I came home today and realized that my kitchen was trashed, it was all nice and shiny clean on new years eve, but making baklava and other things in there... well you'd probably be shocked by how many dishes two people can use! It's nuts! And I am tired, but I decided that my Husband deserved to come home to a clean Kitchen. he deserves to come home to a clean house too, but lets not get crazy ;). So I"m doing the dishes ( First load is in the dishwasher, I'll load another after it's done, clean the counters and stove and get my booty to bed, where it belongs this time of the month!)

I am sad that I still have not used my Embroidery machine, but to be honest I have just not had the energy to mess with it.

I'm watching the news, and there are some seriously ORANGE men on there... running for the Iowa Caucus or whatever it's called. One thing I will say about this years Campaigning, it's not turning out the way anyone thought it would!

( I'm going to vote for Ron Paul, hate all you want, I think Marijuana should be legalized and TAXED TO DEATH, all these drug dealers are making 120 for an eighth of the good stuff, WHY isn't the government in on this?)

I wish there were more hours in the day, so that I could keep the house spic n span, and work, and still get sleep, and have some me time to sit at my sewing machine, *sigh*

Oh I went and checked out my credit report ( Freecreditreport.com) and my score is actually 587, and I have about 4.5k in debt that I need to pay off this year, since the car is paid off that will be INCREDIBLY easy, I am going to pay off the smaller debts first, then move on to the bigger ones. Mainly just want to get it under control. I'm leaving all the medical debt for last ( that's only about 1300) and paying off everything else as soon as I can. I thought I was in a lot more debt than this, so I'm totally happy with the amount! after I pay off all my debt, my credit score will improve DRASTICALLY then I can look into getting a credit card or two and building it right back up, getting loans from the bank and paying them back over time as well. Since my Surgery means that I can't get pregnant for 18 months ( after surgery) I plan to use every one of those months to get Eugene and I Fiscally Solvent, and ready to purchase a house and settle in to start our family!!

I called Charles Schwab today and have an appointment to speak with a financial advisor on February 6th to start my 401k, So I am seriously planning for my future. I want to be able to retire at 65 with enough money to see Eugene and I through comfortably. And if I'm going to do that I need to start now! I know I'm only 23, but in one month I will be 24, and this is the rest of my life I'm planning here. I got to have my stupid years, luckily I was in the sheltering arms of an amazing man during that time, now I have to put aside my stupidity, and become a true helpmate for Eugene. I have to take on the role of Woman of the house, and take it seriously, this isn't play. If I want him to live for a good long time I have to make life as stress free as possible :D So I am! <3

Anyways, this was a lot of chit chat, but hey,. it's my diary, that's what it's here for.

<3

~Sarah

hehehe My scale is broken, but I sure like those numbers!

So when I woke up this afternoon I stepped on my scale, as I do randomly throughout the week ( I know camping the scale is bad, I can't help it) and it said 235!!!! LOL!! since last time I checked I was 296, I found that hard to believe :P But man that number sure was nice!!

Beware Below this point is total honesty and talk about poop and vomit... skip it if you can't handle that!

Came home today to a sick puppy :( She had gotten sick all over the floor in the dining room, she almost knocked me over in her wild dash out of the door to finish what she'd started. I don't think it's possible for her to have anything left inside after how much she left outside and on my carpet. But I'm keeping an eye on her just in case. I do not want a repeat, Threw up 3 times while cleaning it up. *Shudder* Hate hate hate cleaning up any sort of poop, or vomit.... I'll do it, but I have an EXTREMELY sensitive nose, and even when I close off my nostrils ( Idk why I can do that, but almost all the people in my maternal family can) I can still feel that the air with the poop smell is thicker than regular air, and then the vomit ensues. Awful. *Shudder*

At work today I broke my own goal by 14! I only wanted to get 50, and manged to get 64 ( that's really good in case you are wondering lol) But my last ticket took the cake on the day! It was the BEST ticket I could have gotten to end a stressful monday back from a three day weekend! All I have to say about that, is good riddance! Due to my NDA I can't tell you what the petition was about, but I can tell you it was sick. I enjoyed applying that action.

I'm getting extremely sleepy, so I'm going to get off teh blog and watch some tv while I make sure the dog isn't going to have to go again.

Good night Bloggers, Living out loud is nice <3 I feel good being able to talk honestly about dog poop and bad days ^0^

It's officially January 2nd 2012.... Wow..

THIS IS MY YEAR TO LIVE OUTLOUD

So do you all remember how when you were a kid time seemed to absolutely CRAWL bye? And now... well now that I'm an adult and have responsibilities, and BILLS and DEBT and a credit score of.... 396 ( OMFG I JUST SAID THAT ON THE INTERNET), Now it flies by. Paycheck by paycheck, the bills keep coming, and the debt does get smaller, but the time... the time goes by quicker and quicker it seems.

In February I will be 24, I have this Credit score because I was a VERY stupid 18 year old who though plastic meant free money. But regardless of this mountain of personal debt, I have successfully paid off a car 10 months early, and I have a plan. :D Now to my New Years resolutions.

I resolve to:

Laugh like no one can hear me

Love like I'm going to die any moment

Live out loud, this means to live truthfully, with myself and others, to OWN my body, it's mine, I made it this way, I'm working to make it smaller, it's a process. I plan to grow Spiritually, this is what Living out loud means!

Eat Healthily more often than not.

Give up Diet Dr.Pepper( my poison)

pay off my debt.

So this payday I didn't put anything towards debt, it was the last payday in 2011, and I wasn't strong enough to kiss it good bye! :P But for the rest of this year, Every payday after Groceries and gas and bills, I will be paying off my debt! About 350 bucks at a time... so 700 dollars a month will be going towards Debt decrease, plus of course, all of my tax return, and my spring bonus ( if we get one) and my next Christmas Bonus. EVERYTHING that I would normally fritter away on useless things, I will happily put towards debt, to get my Credit Score repaired as soon as possible. So that I can get a loan for a house! Because my Ultimate reason to get out of all the debt I'm in now, is to get into a 30 year commitment of debt ;).

Now you are probably wondering why in the world I would get down and dirty with my numbers like that! the reason for it is because I want to be truthful. And Truthfully, I was a dumb ass teenager who didn't know what the hell she was doing when she got her first plastic, and it's biting me in the ass so hard it might actually take a chunk.

But I will pay it off, this year... It will be done! <3 Have a beautiful new year everyone! Hope your Resolutions are just as attainable as mine!