Wow.... Men.. hahaha

Eugene comes up to me at work today, and he says, well are you pregnant yet? I said I don't know, he said what do you mean you don't know? it's been a week since you were ovulating, shouldn't you know by now?

Wow... men are really really really dumb.

I let him that that the earliest I would be able to tell would be 24 days after conception, so I wouldn't know until at least december 21st, and at the latest january 16th. That did not make sense to him, he said, wait, so you aren't pregnant or you are? and I just looked him, and said very clearly and concisely, I Don't Know. He's a little .... pushy about this. It's kinda ticking me off haha.

Oh well, I know he means well, I was just like omg wtf bbq sauce!!! :P

anyways, yeah... men... hahaha

Minkie quilt... my next project? yes please!

So freaking aawesome!!!

I cannot wait! Tax return = fabric shopping YEAH!

Dresden plate number 1 completed!!

I did it!!!!

I managed to make one dresden!!! There are mistakes in it, it's not perfect, but it's beautiful, and I love it. YAY!!!!!

I'd like to give a special thanks to :

who made the whole thing possible with their AMAZING tutorials! :D

It's not mounted yet, but man is it ever beautiful!!! Hope you like it!

I need an actual iron and ironing board I've founf,a nd an actual sewing table if I'm going to successfully quilt anything, I will not be able to quilt anything unless I have a large flat space that's not the floor.

But still GO ME I ROCK!

QUILTING HAS BEGUN!!!!!!!!

I think that the funniest part about my quilting, is that i decided to star with one of the harder quilt patterns, a dresden.

I now haveJust begun the madness we call Quilting, but I must say... I'm really happy already!!!

I couldn't get my sewing machine to work, so I actually ended up hand stitching the p[oints on my dresdens, and I'll be hand stitching them together too, so I will be using the hell out of some pins!! Gotta keep it all straight as possible. :)

You can probably see all of my new quilting tools on the left, I'm really happy about those! I got them all at a STEAL! I bought literally 120 dollars worth of merchandise for 70 bucks!!! I LOVE BLACK FRIDAY SALES!!!

Ahem, anyways, I can't figure out how to get my sewing machine to work, so I am having to hand stitch everything for now, which as you can see from the pressed and pointed picture, I'm doing really really well at :)

The dresden is turning out fabulously, I'm really proud of it!!!!

instead of putting a circle in the middle of my dresden, I'm going to put three squares, so it's more like a sunburst inside a sunburst. :) Like a flower.

Super Excited!!!!

I will TOTALLY be posting more pics, and more blogs as I move along in this. I am assuming that hand sewing an entire quilt is going to be such a bitch, but I'm totally willing to do it, if it means that I can keep quilting at the moment.... It's really really alot more fun than you'd think, even the hand stitching!

I'm about to go match up rights to backs and pin so that I can get started on my hand stitching of the dresden completely together.

Later guys!!!!

My Journey to Gothdom, starting in 2011

I will start my make up with

http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?skuId=2056963&productId=44560&navAction=push&navCount=1&subdoc=3330offwk2310pal&categoryId=cat80039

Add: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0009XJNII/ref=pd_lpo_k2_dp_sr_2?pf_rd_p=486539851&pf_rd_s=lpo-top-stripe-1&pf_rd_t=201&pf_rd_i=B001ADUC1I&pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_r=00VTQ1D1PN3DKJS0GHBZ

Finish with

http://www.amazon.com/Palladio-Natural-Rice-Powder-Tranlucent/dp/B001ADUC1I

Use this awesome kit for my eye liner

http://www.sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml;jsessionid=BLRJ13WLNULO4CV0KSIA5UQ?id=P273917&categoryId=C105

and then use

http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/186-8906400-8424207?asin=B0043FC04M&AFID=Froogle_df&LNM=|B0043FC04M&CPNG=health%20beauty&ci_src=14110944&ci_sku=B0043FC04M&ref=tgt_adv_XSG10001

or

http://www.continualyouth.com/LaveraConcealer-FairBeige.aspx

for the eye shadow :D

This is my plan, and I cannot wait to get it all organized! :D

OMG pieeeeeeeeee

Because it's Thanksgiving, our team had pie day, alot of us brought in pie, and it was awesome.


now I"m in a coma, and can't really type haha, laters

Cervical Fluid? OH MY GODDESS

lawl!!

So yeah, yesterday, when I got home, I did the whole, check the CM and see the consistency, and guess what? IT WAS TOTALLY CLEAR AND STRETCHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.o I was like holy freaking SHIT! I know that's fertile fluid! So I went to sleep, and got woken up int he most amazing way ever, Sex is so amazing when you get woken up for it! :)

I think I might have scared our house guest though, sadly, she was there and I didn't know about it until after the fact lawl.

Anyways, we had phenomenal sex, and I just enjoyed myself like you would not believe!

And Eugene did too, he's really Enjoying the no condoms thing :D Me too I hate condoms.

Regardless, this was amazingly good sex, and I was very happy with the result. Afterwards I just went back to sleep lol.

Then of course I woke up late, had to rush to get to work.

one of these days I"m going to just invest in an alarm clock LOL.

Well It's time for this blog post to be over, december 21st I'll start the pregnancy tests again.

200 mg of clomid down!

So you know that they uppded my dosage of Clomid, and it's now 100 mg a day for 5 days, last time I took clomid, I took it and then a few days after the last does started seeing the cervical mucus we were looking for, but this dosage level is hard core, day too and I already see it! Nice!!! Went tio the bathroom and had this eggwhite in my underwear, I know you are probably like wtf? but I swear to Goddess that's what it looked like, next time I"ll take a picture to share, cause it's true O.O

Egg in mah pants!!!

Who's doing 5k number 2 this saturday november 20th? I AM!!!

So Saturday I'm doing my second 5k....

http://www.runtex.com/web/2-3136.asp


It's only a dollar, and I"m stoked, I cannot wait to do this with my two good friends, I'm HOPING that Laura will come too, but she's not been online all week, so I don't know, Depends on her tummy, the baby does not like food, or walking, or sitting up apparently lol.

Anyways I'm super excited guys :) This is excellent, it's the 2nd 5k I've done, and it is helping me attain my goal of 1 5k a month, on the cheap ;)

Can't WAIT!!!

Mommas song

Mamas Song Lyrics at elw

Mama you taught me to do the right things
So now you have to let your baby fly
You've given me everything that I will need
To make it through this crazy thing called life
And I know you watch me grow up and always want whats best for me
And I think I found the answer to your prayers

And he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama theres no way you'll ever lose me
And giving me away is not goodbye
As you watch me walk down to my future, I hope tears of joy are in your eyes

Cuz he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

And when I watch my little baby grow I'll only want whats best for her
http://www.elyricsworld.com/mama's_song_lyrics_carrie_underwood.html
And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers
And that she'll say

He is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

Black Friday Sales sheet by KLannahan :)

In case anyone is brave enough to go I know that myself and 3 others will be going :)

I have sorted and looked through ads for 2 hours and this is what I have found, please enjoy! These are specific things that sparked my attention.... not all of the items on sale are listed though I will be sure to give a general explanation of what I found. I really hope this helps you with your shopping and give you some holiday ideas!

Stores open:

Toys R Us - 10pm Thanksgiving

Old Navy - Friday @ Midnight

Kohls - 3am

Target - 4am

Sears - 4am

JCPenny - 4am

Macy's - 4am

Best Buy - 5am

Walmart - 5am

Sams Club - 5am

Kmart - 5am

Radioshack - 5am

Michaels - 5am

Lowe's - 6am

Offlice Depot - 6am

Staples - 6am

Office Max - 7am

Big Lots - 7am

Costco - 9am

Target:

IF YOU ARE VERY SERIOUS ABOUT SAVING MONEY, THIS IS NOT THE BEST BLACK FRIDAY PLACE TO ADD TO YOUR LIST!!!! Though, I found appliances there were generally the "best buy" at Target this year!

Top of the line coffee makers and such for 30$ and less

Toys R Us:

This place had tons and tons of awesome deals!!! Buy Pampers Value Pack Diapers and get a FREEEEE box of wipes! And they had realllllly cheap infant furniture (though Kmart was cheaper).

Kids character fold out couches - $23

Digital Frame - $23 (Cheapest one found in all ads)

Transformers - $10 (regularly priced at $20

Transformers - $5 B1G1F (aka buy-1-Get-1-Free)

Gaming T-Shirts - $12.99 - $16.99 B1G1F

Folding Slide - $15

Rock-n-Ride Pony - $24

Classic Board Games - $9 - $20 B1G1F

Ball Pit - $15

Pavilion Basic Games - $2

Lego Construction sets - $30 - $75

Batteries - $6 - $8 B1G1F

Walmart:

Had very cheap infant/toddler clothes, toys, dvds and tv series on dvd.

Baby/Toddler Clothing - $10 and less

Dvds - $2 and up

TV series dvds - $12

Kid toys - $10 and less!

Big Lots:

I am a huge fan of their furniture so I had to take a look and they did not disappoint!

Children's LEATHER Chair - 40$ (must have)

AWESOME FRAMES - 6$

Pillows - $2.25 (Kmarts were cheaper)

Kohls:

I didn't even know there was a Kohls in Austin until I saw their ads! I absolutely love Kohls because they ALWAYS have sales! Though I did not get prices, ladies, if you are shopping for clothes for yourself you WANT to shop here. This is HANDS DOWN the cheapest and best quality woman's clothing available! Other things that sparked my interest below!

Jewelry - up to 60% off!

Comforters - $25

Towels - $3 (I think... can't remember... but I wrote it down because they were among the cheapest found!)ALL Perfume and Calogne - 10% off

Best Buy:

Cheapest music related electronics found here! As well as the stuff below!

LCD E-Reader - $140

(NEWEST MODEL) Polaroid - $20

Blueray movies - $8

Dvds - $4

Sears:

Looking through the Sears ad actually got me excited.... don't ask me why.... Like Kohls they had great deals on woman clothing and shoes! Though the stuff below really caught my eye!

Rings and other Jewelry - $20 and up!

Junior Tees - $5

Slippers - $4

Very large frame - $13

Dresses - 60% off

JCPenny:

I have spent sooo many nights shopping here for deals with my mom and family and is generally one of my favorite places to shop! I was disappointed with the sales for woman and juniors this year but I did find a few things to be excited about!

(VERY VERY NICE) Deluxe Airbed - $40

Jewelry - up to 75% off

Mens Clothing - up to 70% off (the best place I have found for deals on mens clothes /w good quality!)

Bedding - $20 and up

Pillows - $3

Towels - $3

Kids Clothing - $3.88 and up (everything pretty much 60% off though)

Socks, Stockings, Bras - 10$ and less!

KMART:

This is going to be my number 1 stop! The best deals by far on absolutely everything! I am tempted to go no where else (except Toys R Us). Kmart has won with every deal in town! Plus with their Layaway still around they are a great deal for people on a small budget! You could literally do all of your holiday shopping right here!

Star Wars Lego Clocks - $20

Fine Jewelry - 70% off

Comforters - $15 (all sizes)

Towels - $3

Pillow (and ALL Matress pads on sale) - 2 for $4

Fake X-mas tress - 100$ off (cheaper than EVERY store!)

Fisher Price Toys - B1G1F

Nerf Guns - less than $5

54-pc Tupperware - $6

Appliances - $20 and less

Men Electric Shavers - $15 - $50

Conair (Hair, cosmetic, beauty stuffz) - 50% off

AND SOOO MANY OTHER GREAT DEALS!

OLD NAVY:

I almost forgot about old navy... there is only 1 reason to come here... JEANS JEANS JEANS JEANS!

All adult Jeans - $15

All kids Jeans - $10

Walgreens:

Just for a few things here and there for the light shopper still looking for a deal!

X-mas lights - $3.99 B1G1F

X-mas cards (24 and 36 pack) - $6 and less

Scotch Tape (3 pack) - $0.99

ONLY ON THANKSGIVING SALE

As seen on TV products - B1G1F

2-Litre of Soda - $0.88

Quotes and how they make me feel inside

Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body.
-Elizabeth Stone


That describes me perfectly right now, and I"m Ready to allow my heart to walk around outside of my body, :)

and then

“I cannot forget my mother. Though she was not as sturdy as others, she is my bridge. When I needed to get across, she steadied herself long enough for me to run across safely.” - Amy Saxon Bosworth


And that describes my mother perfectly. I cried when I read that because it was so true.

Hope, and the eternal spring it wells from.. :)

So Laura is Pregnant, Calleah is Pregnant, and I'm going to get pregnant this weekend.

I know I know, you all are thinking, "Sarah don't get your Hopes up, if it doesn't happen you'll be crushed, remember October?" Well My answer to you is yes, I remember October, I was crushed, but I'm more prepared now. and I have some advice on where to buy my "water" haha!

I found out that Calleah was Pregnant yesterday, and I was stoked for her, I asked her where she was getting whatever water she was drinking, and she laughed and said the liquor store. :)

So this weekend, I'm getting Eugene and myself really really drunk, and on sunday we are going to make a baby. :D

I know that's a bold statement to make, but you have no idea how serious I am about this.

Hope is what I'm living on, hope that I will indeed get the gift I've been waiting on.

Hope that I WILL get my Children. :)

Laura and Calleah, and Heather and I will all have babies within months of each other. We will all be amazing mothers, and we will all cherish the gift.

What I want to pass on the most to my children is that Hope is about believing with your heart that you will get what you wish for. :) Hope is about knowing the odds and wishing on the stars anyway. It's about understanding that Medicine, and Logic are not the answers to everything.

I am Hopeful.

What did I do on my saturday?

LAUNDRY, DISHES, MOVING HEAVY ASS FURNITURE, SORTED FABRICS, CLEANED LOFT AND ROOM( well at least I started too, it's a process)

Put away laundry, believe it or now I actually hung up clothes, and put others away in drawers, I have a few more loads of laundry to do, I was literally at the end of my wardrobe, I haven't wanted to do laundry since Florida haha.

did the Dishes, Made No Bake Cookies for Eugene and My Team at Work.

started on this damn giraffe hat that was ordered ( Difficult, can you say it with me?)

moved my dresser to the opposite side of my room, turned my bed so that it's now in the cubby that the cloest makes, right in front of the window. Moved the TV DVD player, and Wii from the loft intot he bedroom, long with all the movies and games. Making better use of the space in the bedroom, the loft needs to be cleared out a bit to START using it as a sewing room, until it's time for Baby, then I'll move all that stuff into the bedroom as well, and turn teh loft into a baby room, but that's future, NOW I have 5 drawers of different fabrics! I have 1 drawer of boy fabric, 2 drawers of all girl fabric, 1 drawer of IDK cause I wasn't willing to put too much effort into it fabric, and 1 drawer of outdoor fabric, like the kind of fabric you'd find on outdoor chair cushions.

And last but not least a bag filled with I think about 4 yards ( maybe more) of Fuzzy Leopard Print Fabric, that I'm wanting to make a blanket out of... I just need to get a nice brown satin or cotton for the backing, and some pretty brown fur to edge it with.

anyways, obviously, I've been a busy little bee, ttyl!

ps

I have an idea.... I think that while this is a sewing room, I'll have to make some fun decorations for the walls, like pirate bees, snorkeling bees, and fishies and such.

And I obviously need to get to work on learning to quilt. I have plenty of time I know, but I want to learn, so that I can get a few done, you never know how many little ones you will pop out when you are on fertility drugs, so might as well have three or four on hand. Not to mention, I want to make my own nursing wraps, and I'm thinking that I want to make my own slings too....

patterns patterns patterns.

Day one, Friday November 12th, 2010

Today is the first day of a new cycle, the last was 66 days long. That's insane, I had terrible back cramps all last night, and today have been having the usual front cramps.

Today is a good day, I mean I know it is, but there have been several unfortunate events that have colored it a little worse.

Guy followed me to work, pulled in behind me and starts yelling at me to learn to drive. Going to call the cops about that, in a few minutes

second, a family member thinks it's ok to tell teir children that gay people are just confused. *sigh* I need to find that number

ok my case number is 105060352, a detective will give me a call. I'm so upset and scared at the same time, that was a really awful thing to do to someone.



found the taser I want

http://crunchgear.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/07/hello-kitty-taser.jpg

HAHAHHAHHAHAH IT's HERE~~~

Apparently running brought on my period like nothing else could have!!

Wow! The back cramps just came in like a wave, you have no idea how painful they are. But I just keep thinking, it's for the baby, it's for the baby it's for the baby. :)

told Eugene that he's got 6 days to get ready ( Since right now it's so light that it's still old blood, and I won't count day one til I get new blood) But OMFG YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's finally here, I'm sooo mean and cranky right now, but FUCK YEAH it's worth it.

BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY!!!!!!

July will be the month of cancers in my home, Eugene and his twins/triplets. :D

ok back to work,just wanted to share the excitement!

I RAN!!!!!!!!

OMG GUYS!! today at the gym I was there alone, and I decided to try to run, you know, so if I failed no one would be there to see it, and I DID IT!!! I ran a total of .25 miles, I didn't do it all at once, I did it over the course of two miles, but I freaking DID IT! my heart rate went up over 200 both times, which is probably unhealthy as fuck but that's ok, because I DID IT!!!

2 miles done 1/4th of one run!

I'm stoked yall, really really stoked!

Met a guy in the gym ( He came in as I was heaving to get breath lol) who I talked to about fitness, and how he and I may be heavy, but the fact is that there were no skinny people in the gym, and that made us healthier by far than non exercising thin peeps.

I think that I made sense to him. :) I explained that regardless of what the scale says, the fact is that if you are in there and doing your aerobic exercise, then you were making your body a healthier place for your organs. That our hearts are slowly building stamina, as are our lungs, and arteries, and muscles, and that even if it didn't happen in a year, or two years, eventually, if we keep up with the exercise, we will be where we need to be to live out healthy long lives.

I left him with a smile, so I hope he doesn't give up.

I'm stoked that I did it, but now I hurt lol.

Quilting :) And Other stuff that makes me happy

Shopping list when I get my bonus

Dresden Ruler
6.5 inch square ruler
long ruler ( ALL CLEAR)

Large Quilting Mat
Olfa Rotary Cutters

Wooden table

Comfy Chair for sewing in


Now I have a huge master bedroom, so I plan to take a little bit of it, and turn it into my sewing area, :) /Excited!

I really want to start quilting, but need the above materials before I can, so I'll have to be all patient. I'm sorta ok with that LOL.

After that, everything needs to go to pay off the car. We have got to get it paid off asap, because I cannot afford 1k ever 6 months for bloody insurance! I just can't!

Also... WOOT for Eugene being such an amazing husband!

He got himself a thing of eggnog, I am lactose intolerant, I got home yesterday to a half gallon of chocolate milk in the fridge :) GO EUGENE!!!

Not to mention getting woken up with morning funsies ;) I adore that!

man I love my hubby, he's so good to me, letting me put up the tree three weeks before thanksgiving, letting me get into sewing even though he probably thinks it's a waste of money. And doing all he can to help me get reasy to have a baby!

I am blessed.

Quilting tutorials on youtube :)

http://www.youtube.com/user/MissouriQuiltCo

watch them and love them!!

tired nauseous, tired, nauseous, tired, naseous.... when does it end?

So this week I've been exhausted, I know it's only tuesday night and I'm already crying for mercy I'm so tired I feel all out of whack. I hate that. I think it's the provera, and the provera also can cause nausea.

So I suppose that since I took my last pill tonight, I'll start getting better soon. My main hope is that I start my cycle soon, I mean a 70 day cycle is retarded.

So yeah, I think that if I'm able to start my cycle I'll feel sooooooooo much better.

It will hurt, hell it already hurts, but at least then it would be over, this 70 days of evil depression.

And then we can try again, I'm moving out of my depression though, starting to feel hopeful, this month could be our month!

I want Triplets! ;)

Learning new things

So I'm going to be learning to quilt eventually. I'm pretty happy about it, I got my new sewing machine and a bunch of accouterments over the weekend from a craigslist add.80 bucks for a ton of stuff! I even got a button hole foot and a zipper foot... and even some fabric :)

And my sister in law gave me some fabric too, and my old senior from work is going to bring me some too! :) I'm pretty excited. Just you know, have to figure out what to do. I want to make things to bring warmth to people's lives.

Both Heather and this blog inspired me to do this..
http://terificreations.wordpress.com/tag/life/

That free motion quilt is the most beautiful think I ahve ever seen. and I want to be that good someday.


So I"m going to start reading and figure out how to block, and how to start setting about making a quilt, and hopefully have one made by the time Eugene and I have our first baby. I think it's completely possible. And I hope that I can make it beautiful.... :)

Anyways, that's all I have.

Cycle 2 provera day 9 in the 60's of my cycle

It's been a long long 15 days yall.

tomorrow is day 10 ( The last day) Of provera. Then we wait for the cycle to start over, and we count to day 5, and I start taking 100 mg a day for 5 days of clomid.

I've been having issues with a friend, who continues to say thoughtless things. I am thoughtless sometimes, but not to this extent. She doesn't get it though, she thinks I only get mad because it's her, but I"m not even kidding, if anyone said " Don't eat all the cookies by yourself ;)" I would be mad, I don't care who it was. My best friend Heather, kyrie, and Jessica, they know better than to say something like that. I wouldn't eat a whole 4 dozen cookies by myself, and her saying that was just fucked up.

So yeah, that hurt alot. I'm not sure how to react to it. she said she didn't mean it like that, but it was just so dickish... IDK yall I just don't know.

Whatever, I'm trying to move on, and not be so emotional, but the provera isn't helping, Heather knows that I mean when I say that!

oh well, we will be trying again in a few days to 2 weeks, depending on when my cycle decides to start. That's really all I have, other than the fact taht I"m exhausted, spent the weekend with my step son and Eugene putting up the tree and christmas shopping and such.

later

I need a pitcher of margeritas

So today as you know is day two of the provera.

I have decided that saturday night will be my last lushy night, I would LOVE for some friends to come over and celebrate it with me, but Laura works, Heather works, Amanda may or m ay not be able to come, and Misty will be out of town. That's ok, I've decided that if all else fails, I'm going to just drink alone!

At this point I just don't care, as long as I get a drink.

I had such a long hard week, it was beautiful, and I loved every minute that I got to spend with my family, but it also broke my heart.

Gary went in for Chemo on Monday, and the next day, Aunt Cindy noticed he looked yellow in the eyes, told the dr and he's got raised billium levels, he's jaundiced basically. So they give him an ultrasound of the liver, and find trouble, so they pet scan him to get a better view.....

he's got more tumors growing.

He was hit so hard by that, I think it just took his energy away from him.

I know he's struggling to believe in his own healing. So I am going to believe even harder for him.he will make it, and he will be whole again. :)


He will be there to hold his grand children, and walk my sisters down the aisle, and be apart of their whole life. He will. :) I just know it!

Anyways, I was busy trying to be as helpful as I could for them while I Was there, and I think that I did a good job, I hope I was able to be a blessing to them.

by now I am sure you can see why I need a drink, not to mention the freaking drive there and back... which is horrendous btw, absolutely horrendous! I think it's time for Sarah to get her drink on. I haven't had a drink in months, haven't wanted to chance it, but since this is cycle two of provera, and I'm on day 2 of it, i am absolutely positive that I am not pregnant. Therefore it's ok, this once to relax just a bit. And get drunk. :)

My wish is that I get pregnant this month,and give birth in July or August. To healthy baby(ies)I think I deserve that much. :)


Ok my lunch is nearly over, and my pills ahve been downed, and my head feels a bit better now that i've gotten the awful news out of the way.

ok!!!! It's november first!

Today is day two of provera, and hopefully soon we will see some real results, case you know it's like day 56 I think with no bleeding?

ugh

anyways, lets all just hope that this months clomid use really does work! I want to be able to really really celebrate this christmas, not be all sad about it....


ok I need food, ttyl