if you have nothing nice to say... blog about it?

So it's not that I'm not happy for all of my pregnant friends, Laura, Calleah, Sommer, Amber... and the list goes on.
Because I am, totally happy for them.

It's just that I'm really fucking depressed that I lost the baby, and it's so freaking hard to see themall so happy and blooming with their babies in side of them, while I"m here, wanting to be a mother, literally dying to be a mother, and I can't seem to.

I know it will happen when it's mean tto happen, but I would really really be appreciateive if is could happen in the next two months, I want to get pregnant and have a baby this year, I don't want to ahve any more miscarriages. I want to have children, and be a mommy so bad....

It hurts guys. it hurts so badly.