Baby on my mind

So, as some of you visiting might know, I've been wanting a baby for years, and have had two miscarriages in the last two years. It sometimes seems like I will never be able to be a mom, to have a child, and watch him grow into a young adult. But now... As of this year actually, that Dream of a Family will become realized.

Let me give you some background!

My name is Sarah Simons, and I am Married to my amazing Husband Eugene Simons, we sometimes fight, but we love each other unconditionally, and then there is my step son, who is the most amazing Step son in the world, his name is Malachai Simons, and I am so blessed to call him my son!

Eugene and I met when I was 18( 4 years ago) and I fell in love instantly, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was going to marry him, and so I did :) We had been together 2 years when we got married in 2008, February 29th 2008, we chose that date because it really represents us, we are eccentric and strange, and we loved the idea of getting married on that day.

we have been happily married for over two years now, and it's time to start our family, in September, we will start trying to conceive. Why September you ask? ecause I want to have been on prenatals vitmins for a full three months before I get pregnant again, to give myself the best chance of keeping this baby to term. Another Miscarriage would just kill me, the first one was expected, I mean most of them end that way, but the second one, when I was five months along... that one hurt really really badly, so I'm going to be prepared this time. There will be no oops! It will be fully planned from preconception to birth.

I have been reading so many books, finding out everything I can about conceptions, pregnancy, birth, and child rearing, I know that I can't really know what I'm getting myself into until I have that sweet baby in my arms, but I know that I can be as ready as possible.

I have a best friend, heather Holloway, who is on this journey with me. :) We both want to get pregnant within 3 months of each other. That way we can help each other out with the birth! I want her in the birthing room with me, :) She's such a wonderful woman, and... I'm blessed to know her, let alone have her in my circle of friends!

She just recently outed herself on Facebook, so I feel safe outing her here :) <3

Right now Eugene and I are saving 350 from each paycheck in order to save up enough money by january first 2011, to purchase a second vehicle, this vehicle should be baby safe in the extreme, so far we are looking at the Honda Element, or one of the Mazda Wagons. I'm leaning towards the element. lol It's the easiest to clean, Eugene laughinly calls it the rubber maid car.

Anyways, that's all I have to say for now, will try to write again soon. <3