cycle day 1!

So the provera has worked it's majic, and I am not on cycle day one. :)

I am hopeful that this month ( May) Will be our month, and that we will have a beautiful baby or two... or three... early in 2012.

Tomorrow ( Sunday May 1st, and Cycle day 2) I will start on my azithromyocin, and Eugene will as well.
Then monday may 9th, I will go in for my HSG, which I am not looking forward too, HOWEVER, Most couples get pregnant within 6 months of having one, so I think I will be fine. I'm willing to deal with that pain, though I really really really hope it doesn't interfere with us getting pregnant THIS month.

I'm tired, so this is a short post, ttyl

Intensely emotional and stress ful week

Provera day 6, and still no period, just lots and lots and lots of cramping!

Still waiting on that period to come, sot aht I can start a new cycle! I'm really hopeful!

So that's going to happen is that I'll take the provera into day 10, and my period should start anywhere from day 7 of provera, to day 14( I won't be taking pills past the tenth, but that's what the label says :P) Then when I start my period, I have to call the dr immediately, He will then prescribe me clmoid, he's upping my dosage to 200 mgs a day for 5 days. So that's cool. On day two of my period, I'm supposed to start taking Azithromyacin, and Eugene has to take them too. then on day 10, I have to go into the clinic, and have an HSG preformed. Which is where they take a needle, and stick it into your cervix, inject you with dye, and watch as the dye spills out of your F-Tubes, to make sure there is no blockage.

I will ask him about ultrasounds to gage when I'm ovulating, and then there will be lots and lots and lots of delicious sex :D


So now you are caught up on fertility stuff.


sunday I talked with my Aunt Donna on my father's side, and she told me that Steve had tried to commit suicide. I was of course shocked, and went through a whole bunch of emotions in about a day and a half, where I was sad, then angry, then uneffected, then angry again. I felt that I should go to him, show him that I'd been where he was, and that it was not the best path for anyone!

I did go see him, my Sweet Sister in law went with me. It was awful, I thought that making sure that he was ok, would make me feel better, when that wasn't at all the case. I hope he doens't try it again, but I don't want him in my life. So I don't know what to do.

Emotional and stressful, yes this is.

One of these days I'll figure it out, but for now, I need to focus on Me, Eugene, Malachai, and our future baby(ies) That's all I can do.


Later all <3

starting again.. this time with Texas Fertility Center

Provera day one, 3 hours after first pill intense cramping. This period will start quickly. Will update at home!

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14 days late and counting

So I'm 14 days late, waiting on that blood test, because A HPT wouldn't be accurate til sunday at the earliest.... I figure may as well just wait on blood test
the spotting never came to anything, though I am still cramping a bit, nothing horrid.

I will call the dr tomorrow and see if they got my test results back yet.

Will update more on that later

for now, my head hurts, my eyes are watery and red, and I keep sneezing. Summer cold is fail.

Today I got about 4 hours of sleep, and had to see the vamps, run to a bakery down town for fabric scraps, and then I ran to the book store that's closing down and got 29 books for 18 bucks... that was awesome.

Going back tomorrow with Jeremiah, I'm going to pick out books to read to babies.

Wednesday is half over!

Woot! That means it's closer to the weekend and tubing :)

Can't wait!

Also, I'm tired and hungry, but have been absolutely gushing the lovey dovieness today, and IDK why. I'm not normally this mushy.

Regardless.... it's one of those days where curling up with my book would be more than welcomed.

So here are the symptoms I'm dealing with today, pretty bad cramping but no bleeding, have been cramping without bleeding for a few days, only had a few days of spotting, so either I am pregnant and don't know it yet, or I need to get back on the provera, and up my dose of clomid.

we shall see.

That plunge... it's been taken... and paperwork has already started to get filled out OMFG!!`

So you all know I"m freaking out, and I just want this to kinda be over already, I want to be holding my baby(ies) In my arms, and cooing at their perfect little faces.

But first I have to go through this fertility appointment. Eugene probably won't be able to go to the first one, because it's on a wednesday at 10 am, and he has to work, but I hope he does... I don't want to do it without him.

Anyone else ready to weep for a week?

Tuesday.... Blues? Sorta

So tomorrow I go in for a blood pregnancy test, but I'm 99% positive it's going to be negative.

So facing that reality, I've gone ahead and been referred to a fertility specialist. Something I've been fighting for months. I didn't want to give up. But it's time.

Dr. Silverberg, I go see him for the first time on 4-20-2011, at 10am. I think I'm going to take that day off, so that I have a full day to just chill about whatever he tells me is going to happen.

My biggest fear? That he will tell me he cannot help me. :(

However, I will go to the appointment, and see what can be done, and hope that we can fix me.

I told the scheduling lady ( Sylvia) That I've been on 150 mg of clomid for 4 months, and that I would most likely need shots, she noted that down for me, and we made an appointment.

So yeah, terrified that I've stepped into uncharted waters? Absolutely.

Hopeful? More than you know.

I have to go for now.

Hope for me.

Friday, it's friday, woot woot it's friday!!

So it's FRIDAY!!

Tonight after work, I'm going to pick up my kiddo and his Girl Friend, so that we can go tubing tomorrow on the Comal river, and I cannot freaking wait!! It's my first time, and Malachai's first time, and MAYBE his gf's first time? IDK....
Anyways, it's going to be amazing!

Cannot wait!!

so yeah... my weekend will be spend leisurely tubing down the Comal river.... how much better can you get?

Tonight on lunch I need to run to walmart for waterproof cameras :D

fertility update

two days of spotting and now nothing.... we will see what happens!! I'm bitchy, and cranky, and tired....

My HR rep thinks that all the men are coming on to me because I"m pregnant, apparently men can sense these things... which is possible, but I"m not going to get all my hopes up a this point, I'm just going to chill and wait and see. :)


I may be going to get a tattoo this evening, we will see how he feels about poking me so late at night.

*dies from exhaustion*

ok .... this week has been long and hallacious

Dear men,

Please stop coming on to me, I"m married, happily, and don't want any of that shit

Dear random dude in the tattoo parlor who flashed me, GO TO HELL

In the past week, I've had one person call me a MILF, one person go up to my husband and tell him to get out of the way so that he can date me, and one person flash me their penis.....

WTF is wrong with people.

I want to keep my humor about all of this, but it's getting to the point that I just can't really handle it.

I may be crass, and I may be loud, but I am still a lady, Learn to treat me like one or I'll junk punch you.

Not to mention being called fat.. WTF people? I know I"m fat! I get dressed ever damn day, I think I'm aware of my size.

What I am not aware of is who in the hell gave you the right to fucking say anything? I work out 5 days a week, and I haven't had caffiene in months, I have had nothing but water or DECAF tea for MONTHS.... If you don't like it, then just don't look, I"m not in the mood for your shit, I'm definately not in the mood to be polite to you when you are being rude to me, and I will not apologize when you are lying on the floor holding your dick because you did one thing too many.


I appreciate that some people find me attractive, and I appreciate that some people don't, what I don't appreciate, is people being so immature that they would actually say anything on either subject, and especially after I told them to stop.

*sigh* What can I do to make these people understand that I don't want to be around them if they can't be civil?

Somehow, junk punching doesn't seem to be the answer.

Hmmmm

So I wrote earlier today about how I hadn't had any other issues, sadly I spoke too soon! Now I"m cramping moderately, and the spotting is back, nothing that makes me think, oh noe period is coming, but enough to be uncomfortable.

Hoping that it either manifests as a period quickly, or passes quickly and results in a positive pregnancy test! LETS GO POSITIVE!!!

What in the world?

So on Monday I was super disappointed because I went to the bathroom and there was blood, however it was only there once...

I'm thinking it was just a fluke, o r possibly ovulatory bleeding, I will test in two weeks to be sure. today is cycle day 28, usually have a 38 day cycle. So we will see what happens, I had had sex hours before the bleeding, soooo... maybe we got lucky? Goddess I hope so.