2 weeks 6 days into my cycle

That's where I am, having pretty bad gas bubble pains, hate those, they hurt, and I am never anywhere where I can get to lemon and hot water *sigh*

have to pee alot, absolutely exhausted, ovulated last week, but super nose is back this week witha vengeance.

the signs are pointing to yes, but I'm worried about getting too excited too early, so I'll stay calm until march 15th or so. :)

READY FOR A NAP THOUGH!!

The flu..... the most vile sickness ever.

Ugh

I'm sick as a human. Feel like puking up everything I have ever eaten, and a few essential internal organs.

the Drama with Annie, and Misty, and Laura isn't helping either, the drama itself is only with Andrea, as she's the one talking shit about everyone behind their backs. But damn if it isn't bleeding over into my other friendships.

I'm so tired of Drama, and the flu. I just want people to all get along well without backstabbing and meaness.

I"m sick of it.

2 weeks 5 days, cramping, having a bit of spotting, supposed to start my period in 6 days, but I don't think I will.

Hormonal rage: Check, Understanding that you are crazy, and being unable to stop it? : Check!

Sooooooooo
yeah
sex happened today, but only after I completely freaked out on Eugene
He said yes to sex, but only if he could use a Condom, well I"m fertile still, like REALLY FERTILE still, and I was like oh hell no.

and he didn't respond.
So I freaked on him, told him that all I wanted from our relationship was to love, be loved, and have a child together, and that if he couldn't give me that, then we needed a divorce.

So yeah, I was so pissed, HORMONAL HULK!!! o.O


we are ok now. it just took alot of time for me to calm the hell down.

Wow... So in just a few weeks I get to find out if this month's clomid worked!

This month I took my provera, but it didn't stimulate my period as fast as usual, instead, it waited until day 8 to show up, I was flipping my shit, thinking that it wasn't going to work ( Supposed to start you on days 2-7, it was a day late) so on day 5 of my period ( 2/4/2011) I started taking 150 mg of Clomid, the ovulation inducer. My period continued to stress me out, being really freaking heavy for 12 days, then finally just being spotty on the 13th day, and gone by day 14. On February 14th ( Day 15 of my cycle) Eugene and I had sex, I was extremely fertile. So in just 2 weeks I can start to test to see if perhaps, we got lucky this time, It's unfortunate that we only had sex once this cycle, but that ones was on the most fertile day, so hopefully that counts for something!

*bites nails anxiously*

I feel SEXY!

You know you have those days where you just feel sexy? that's me today yall, I feel sexy, and beautiful, and amazing!! I hope to feel this way far more often!

fun times with friends and swollen ankles

So tonight Laura came over and we sewed and it was wonderful !! Zena love Laura she couldn't stop loving all over her .

we had fun, unfortunately , my ankles did not and now they're swollen 23 times their normal size . but it was worth it .

we got Laura's machine to work finally, and now I'm off to bed good night world sleep well !

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Hormones, Full moon, sometimes I just want to cry, and scream.

Wow! The clomid I took seems to be working it's evil majics on my hormones, as it's supposed to, sadly when my hormone levels spike, I do too, I am no longer the sensible, knows how to behave Sarah, I am instead the evil wants to rip your face off and possibly feed you to my dog Sarah.

Throw in the fact that there is a full moon in TWO days! and you have a recipe for disaster, no one can drive, no one can get your order right, everyone is pissy, and honestly, it's just a bad time to be alive! The full moon brings out the crazies *Raises hand* in full force!

so anyways, valentines day was really sweet, Eugene got me a pink rose, and a box of chocolates, and we made love, and had the most amazing orgasm ever. It was fantastic! So happy about that

Also happened to be fertile on that day ( Technically still fertile, so he needs to get on that) I'm hoping for a November 17th baby!! lol, we shall see!

burning up!!!

Ever felt like you just couldn't handle the heat any longer? Jesus its February and I'm burning the Hell up!!! Need the ac on, because I keep getting horrible hot flashes!! I'm hoping that it either goes away soon, or results in pregnancy, I can handle 9 months of hot flashes if I get a child out of it!!!

So what's new in my life? Had amazing sex on valentines.morning, followed by the worst valentines.day ever at work.

I am putting quilting for the homeless on hold while I build up my own business, quilting, and hopefully be able to stay home and sew for a living!!!! Awesome sauce!!!!

Ok bed time.... night!!!

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Baby blankets, and a quilt for a friend. Oh my poor poor neck!

so so so so so tired, I have been sewing for hours :) Well cutting, and piecing and sewing,a nd it feels like days, it was awesome, and I love it so much, but I am in need of a massage, having a quilting table is awesome, but it doesn't save all of your neck from hurting lol. Not sure if you can really catch the detail of the dragon, but it took hours to cut out completey ( it was drawn on foam poster board, and super super painful to cut it all, but I did it, after I cut the board, I had to use the stencil to cut out the fabric for the dragon ( incomplete here) and that wasn't even the part that took the longest, I also had to cut the "sheet" into four blocks ( I had my friend purchase 4 yards, so that I could cut them into four equal parts, and stitch them together ( The fabric was not wide enough on it's own for a queen sized bed) Then I got to stitch the dragons' body onto the sheet, and that took 4 hours.

Then I attached one of the wings which took another 5 hours., ( Not sure if you can tell how freaking intricate this crap is, and I had to wind so many bobbins it's not even funny, I really need to charge him for that damn thread, that's so expensive)

so not it's just hanging on my baulstrade waiting for me to attach the tail and other wing. I"m dreading it though, it will take a long time, and I will be done, and then I'll be bored until Chris takes me fabric shopping to finish his quilt! :P

Next lets talk about Calleah's Baby Blanket, it's beautiful, hello kitty, pretty pink hearts, and red polka dot flannel on the back. I decided to opt for no batting in this one, because the cotton and flannel made it plenty thick enough, and still allow for it to be washed on any cycle. Of course I need to wash it before I send it to her, I need to get special baby soap for that :) I"ll make a couple more baby quilts firs, and then grab the dreft, so that I can wash them all at once.

Now we will move on to my Baby's quilt, I've had 10 miscarriages, thus far, and to be perfectly honest, I'm tired of waiting to make anything til I'm sure! So I am going to make girly quilts, and manly quilts and keep them all in my hope chest for my darling babies whenever they decide to show up :)

Sometimes you just have to put on your big girl panties, and move the hell on!

And that's what I'm doing, i may not like her, I may be hurt that she is such a huge part of my life and still an evil bitch, but I will move past it and she can just deal.

Heather Holloway was a good friend while we were friends, for the most part, but then she started being emo, and bitchy, and panicky, and paranoid, and good friend that I am I hung on, til one day she defriended me, and put ME on ignore. I say fuck it her loss.

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I have a 4th tattoo!!

It's a beautiful purple rose, with an Orange background. It took about 2 hours, and cost 140 bucks, also got a Monroe piercing. Totally worth it!!!

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