I feel so lost and upset.
like I have no reason for anything
which I KNOW is complete BS I have Eugene and Malachai, and all the other friends and family that love me... but I just feel like a shell. like i'm empty, like I should have something more in my life by now ( Hello baby dreams)
I'm still ready with a laugh alot, and still pretty happy mostly, but times like these when I'm home alone and just know that I should be working on growing a mini me.....it's depressing.
I just kinda want to run away.
which is silly I know
but now it's been over 2 years, almost 3 since we started trying. and still no lasting pregnancy has come out of it.
I try so hard to get excited about it, but my heart feels ripped out. and I just don't know how to get my happy back
Hoping that my week in fl, where I will be playing mommy to three teenage girls while my aunt and uncle recuperate will make me feel better.
I need the beach and the sand and my girls with me, so that we can just chillax and take life one easy slow vacation paced day at a time. .... I need a stroller......
No comments:
Post a Comment